Friday, November 17, 2006
10:10 PM
under a big umbrella
under a big umbrella
Sometimes, it suddenly strikes me how beautiful a person can be. I suppose that's what they mean by inner beauty; it's something that emanates through skin and bone, it's a really really bright gem, that no age nor adversity can weather nor dull. Really! Sometimes it's just one simple action, or just one careless word, that can suddenly unveil that inner shine in people. I'm not exaggerating - when this happens, someone really starts to glow! It happens for me, at least.
I want to be someone like that! But I am more aware than anyone else how flawed I am, and sometimes flawed so badly that I feel so disgusted at and disappointed with myself. :( Contrast is especially evident when you are surrounded by so many shining gems! Sometimes I really wonder if this happens to everyone, or if I'm just the scum of society. :(
People say that experience toughens, but somehow it seems to be to have turned into an excuse for unkindness and suspicion. Euphemistically put, it's self-protection, and in a way, quite important in the modern society. But somehow, viewing others through such coloured lens, no matter how simple the deed is, compromises a lot on interpersonal relationships and trust. I suppose it depends on what you value more; the relationship or yourself.
I don't know why, I think I'm biased, but when someone shows that she doesn't trust anyone else, I feel as if I can't trust her myself.
But in the end, I think we're all just too sheltered! Perhaps I know too little, I am the sheltered one, I am the narrow-minded one! I admit, empathy is not one of my strengths, but sometimes, to me, rationalising just seems like such a clearcut path.
But ah! Would I know?
I just feel that sometimes, people shouldn't insist that they are in the right, just because they can, or have the authority to do so.
I want to be someone like that! But I am more aware than anyone else how flawed I am, and sometimes flawed so badly that I feel so disgusted at and disappointed with myself. :( Contrast is especially evident when you are surrounded by so many shining gems! Sometimes I really wonder if this happens to everyone, or if I'm just the scum of society. :(
People say that experience toughens, but somehow it seems to be to have turned into an excuse for unkindness and suspicion. Euphemistically put, it's self-protection, and in a way, quite important in the modern society. But somehow, viewing others through such coloured lens, no matter how simple the deed is, compromises a lot on interpersonal relationships and trust. I suppose it depends on what you value more; the relationship or yourself.
I don't know why, I think I'm biased, but when someone shows that she doesn't trust anyone else, I feel as if I can't trust her myself.
But in the end, I think we're all just too sheltered! Perhaps I know too little, I am the sheltered one, I am the narrow-minded one! I admit, empathy is not one of my strengths, but sometimes, to me, rationalising just seems like such a clearcut path.
But ah! Would I know?
I just feel that sometimes, people shouldn't insist that they are in the right, just because they can, or have the authority to do so.
Vanilla Banana!
Hi..........
To focus on a big picture rather thann on the small pot of plant at your balcony.
The world is big and lots of uncertainties and complexities for you to find out!
Be understanding, appreciative and kind to your love ones!
Good intentions and advises will need time to be proven and for you to realise
Time to grow-up and be matured!
Signed! Oldman
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To focus on a big picture rather thann on the small pot of plant at your balcony.
The world is big and lots of uncertainties and complexities for you to find out!
Be understanding, appreciative and kind to your love ones!
Good intentions and advises will need time to be proven and for you to realise
Time to grow-up and be matured!
Signed! Oldman
