It's all about the willpower, is it not! And today I've been a shining example of this precise virtue - while my family is immersed in GOONG happiness outside in the living room, I am here, in my room, stuck and lonely with philosophy wafting before my eyes, and in and out of my ears. YUHUI THE EPITOME OF SELF-CONTROL.
I think I may get rheumetism early :/ Sitting under the fan in a black tee and shorts with cold wing blow blow blowing against my legs last night was the first night I wore tracks! I think, when I'm old I will have a lot of problems, what with my hamstring and my back and my creaky knees and all that.
ALLRIGHT this is as far as I can abstain. AHHH GOONG!
much, well, at least, not in the way you think I do (I think), but I do like it quite a bit! If you get what I mean?
- about a young girl who marries into the modern Korean royal family. She is subjected to palace politics, rivalvry, conflicts (and all that) but somehow, meanwhile, manages to melt the cold prince's heart...
Um oh dear, okay, I don't think I make a very good synops-er. :/ Here,
! This should solve it. Or you could always dramawiki it. :)
Okay now, leave me to mull over my philosophy, and if you happen to be free, try to prod some of that floating philosophy bits into my head, because at the moment,
I haven't blogged for nearly a week, it almost makes it seem as if I was too bogged down with work (as I may want you to believe) but hélas, non!
Well, actually, yes, I've been busy,
WATCHING TV! :D
(and youtube, if it counts)
It's been quite an eventful week, really, no matter the physical or the virtual. Netball trainings, netball carn, school, movies, WEI XIAO PASTA, class dinner, photos and all! But it seems a long time ago that I used my left brain...
I just can't seem to get down to doing math! The curly lines and d-axes of integration just seem to swim and melt into a pool :/ and all I can think of is,
Did Noah and Ally end up together? Ally, say no, say no
, don't marry that greasy black guy! Noah, RUN AFTER HER LA YOU! and so on.
Of course, there is also the quest for the ideal holiday job. Do you know how much effort Jolyn and I are spending, just trying to find a job? (my fingers are crossed, here)
If you're someone out there who doesn't mind that we may be just a little talkative, klutzy and inexperienced, HIRE US! We're free Wed-Sun afternoons after 3pm and we promise, we're fast and dedicated learners, intelligent (hey, really!) and nimble (to jump over candlesticks)! :D
Preferably, the job should offer a three digit pay per hour (I mean, you
do know
who you're hiring, don't you xD), BUTbutBUT before you close this page, just um, five or six dollars would do, actually! :D
WE'RE FOR HIRE!!!!!
Friday, September 08, 2006
11:12 PM
-and pasta!
Frankly, all I want is to tell you is,
WATCH
WEI XIAO PASTA! Youtube is really wasting my (inexistant) life away :( and it doesn't help that sitting and gazing at the amoebic labtop for hours on end only gives me a sore bottom and watery eyes!
And then I walk around dreamy and delusioned for the rest of the day, thinking that some handsome rich boy in a suit (preferably branded, and white - BAI ma wang zi!) will drift into our ferny driveway, park a sleek convertible (a fancy sports car will do too, really) on our moss-covered courtyard, and sweep some pretty neighbour off her feet (all right before my scrutinising eyes, of course).
But I think it must be really fun! It's something I really want to try sometime while I'm still young - act as an extra in a TV show! :)
We are all allowed to dream! HAHA once 2A2B has established their singing career, my big break will come! 你们等着看吧! :D I HAVE FAITH IN YOU AHAHAHA! <3
Another thing. I always thought mandorock was very rare - but many occasions have proved me wrong. English jamming and Chinese jamming are the same, and equally cool, if you please! A difference in language doesn't change the universality of music.
One day perhaps I may have music of my own! PROUDLY, I would say. :D
That's why people say I'm a dreamer haha!
11:00 PM
pancakes-
Some people really like their names a lot! Well, so far, Nicolas Zhang has produced 2 albums (that I know of - pardon me, devout ZDL fans, for my ignorance), and their names are, first and second respectively,
首选张栋梁
主打张栋梁
Did you notice the
common factor?
YES! HIS NAME! Brilliant; you're
really sharp!
Well, he must really like his name a lot! :/
And so I have kindly proposed his third album's name for him - what a good deal! A clever name, and for free too!
PRESENTING TO YOU, ZDL's 3rd album... *drumroll*
又是张栋梁 !
(not forgetting the
ever important element!)
Haha but this said, I think he has come a long way from the time when we all used to laugh at his shoulder-shrugging (like we now do for Kaira Gong :/) and pallor - expensive cars and suits and hairstyling really do the trick!
I don't feel guilty, because at least, I've always liked his voice, and, well, he
does have a nice smile! :D
2:57 PM
leadership - the one that floats!
I think I learnt the most about leadership today, ironically! All along since Nard first sent us the email I thought it would be so meaningless and politically correct and detached, but it seemed very, well, fruitful!
Experience really leaves its impact only after you turn back and reflect, hmm.
Yeah, I learn the most when people share - 'cause I suddenly realise that there are actually so many other POVs that I never considered; I acknowledge the selflessness of other leaders; I re-evaluate my own judgment; I decide I should change for the better.
Leadership really picks out an individual's strengths and weaknesses and throws it straight in their faces - and then it's all up to how they want to manage it.
I recognise my weaknesses, finally. (And then it comes into play again and I make another mistake! when I can't seem to understand why others can't understand theirs :/)
It comes with needs, too.
It's not really affirmation in a glorious, hyped up way, but just, to be sure that your sacrifices have, at least, in the minutest way possible, contributed and served this organisation.
It's in the pyramid of needs, isn't it? Self-esteem and self-assurance. Sometimes being a leader also makes you strong, in the way that, sometimes you don't even get the last remaining bit of respect and recognition, but you learn to live with it.
Rank and titles don't mean anything at all, really! Though I'd never know if this was only something people who already have the positions say.
But to me, everyone is a leader - it's just a matter of when you're ready, and how apt your leadership is in that situation.
I think the worst is when, you know everything is falling apart, but you are helpless - no, in fact, you don't even want to move to piece it back together. As everyone else is.
So much for being a leader, hmm!
Thursday, September 07, 2006
1:56 PM
one advice
choose only the one who can make you fall in love over and over and over again.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
10:47 PM
there were nine,
and then there were six.
What can I say!
It's not about the going, it's about the coming back.And one day it'll all be our turns to fly off to a strange land,
and then how many will there be left?
Friday, September 01, 2006
11:37 PM
MIMOSA PARK CONDO!
Class Party today!
When I'm in denial I don't like to say things out! Somehow saying things out makes everything sound so much more concrete (as if I could pluck immortalised speech bubbles out of the air and carve them in stone), and I can no longer hide behind my curtain of delusion and kid myself that things will always be the way they are now.
But we are leaving soon!
And I don't really know what to say but, I LOVE ALL OF YOU :D and that, you were the best class I could have asked for, and really, I couldn't imagine s4 year without all of you; the silly jokes, the sleepovers, the teasing, the lunches, the photographs, anything and everything!
Secondary school has passed really fast - we're SIXTEEN can you believe it! And in 10 weeks, we'd be, in a way, non-rgs girls anymore.
Funny thing how 25 people can just click together when thrown to suffer together in a hotpot (aka rgs). But there you go, there you have fourfourteen! (:
11:23 PM
l'avenir!
Just finished reading 'The Undomestic Godess' and watching 'The Devil Wears Prada' - frankly, neither piece struck me as particularly astounding or memorable (As in, the sky didn't come crashing around my ears like it
normally does when I read/watch something I really like) but! what really resonated with me was the issue about,
the busy life; the horrors of the hectic schedule!
It seems to me as if our path in life is, in a way, predetermined. Whether we were born smart, or to a rich or poor family, to a city dweller or to a rural farmer, to love to read, to eat our vegetables - just, everything! Because this leads to our education, our interests, and then our place in society - whether to cook and sew and iron and bake and have floury fingers or, to read contracts and draft proposals and leave coffee rings as dark as the shadows under our eyes on our tables!
I suppose the cases in the aforementioned books are extremists, like yijun says! But rgs life can sound suspiciously similar in some ways, so much that I begin to wonder - when our little, seemingly chaotic bubble is burst, how much worse can it get? 16 year olds can already have their handphones ringing, smses coming, emails sending 24h through - what would it be like then, out there in the corporate world!
AIYAH! I was thinking... :/ It's quite scary to grow up! (One day, we will all find the answers to our questions, and laugh at our innocence and gullibility that we lost with age and experience. Hm, the question to ask then, would be - woe or joy?)
We've all been proud of our education - funny thing; but in the end, who is it who survives when thrown on a deserted island? The lawyer famous for her rubber eggs, or the cook who speaks in broken english?